It was at Soul Survivor 2006 then I realised how it really works. It was here that I first experienced the Holy Spirit. I felt God’s unconditional love for me, and found out that all the work had already been done. Jesus dying on the cross had taken away all of my sin, and allowed me to have a close, intimate relationship with my father. I did not have to work to gain my salvation, but just except the gift God wanted to give to me. Before this point, I had been a really closed person, for fear of being hurt and misunderstood, and for many reasons I did not trust people, not even my parents. This changed whilst I was at Soul Survivor too. I began to trust God, and fully give over aspects of my life that I thought were so bad that God would not take them from me. I also learned to like myself, I had spent a long time trying to get people to like me, but it was here that God revealed that the only thing I had to care about was what he thought of me. I had got so many things wrong. God is not like a kid next to an anthill with a magnifying glass; as soon as we do one thing wrong he kills us off. He is a forgiving and merciful God, who wants to get involved in our lives, and help us do the right thing. Becoming a Christian was the best decision I ever made, I have never been so happy, and having the Big man on your side and getting to know him is amazing. I still mess up all the time, but I am constantly being changed for better, and learning about and drawing closer to God each day.